I grew up in the U.S. in Michigan and then went to college across the country in Florida. In college I met my goofy instant best friend, Ben, who later became my husband. I was working as a nurse and he was a youth pastor. We were crazy happy and content with our little family of 2 (4 if we included our fur babies) for almost 4 years when we (especially my husband) wanted to grow our family. I got pregnant with a little boy and had a pretty awful pregnancy and an even more awful delivery via C-section. I was pretty unprepared for how difficult those first few weeks were with a newborn! After many sweet moments mixed with a lot of overwhelming ones, I can say that I absolutely LOVE being a mama to Arthur Wesley ("Ari"). I love all the different types of moments. I'm trying to cherish each stage and its challenges and beauty. It's gone so fast already! We are now about to make a big change and move to Montreal to plant churches. I can't wait to raise Ari in our new city!
What is one thing you love most about motherhood?
I love the amount of love I am capable of knowing. I love Ari SO much. Sometimes I feel like my heart is literally going to explode. I remember friends and family members telling me "you don't know love until you've had a child". I never understood that but now I get it. It's really is amazing. He is part of me and part of my husband. I see so much of us and our family members in him. It's impossible to explain how it feels to have so much love in your heart. It gives me just a taste of the love that God, my Heavenly Father, has for me. And then when your baby starts to really reciprocate that love, it's so beautiful. I just can't stop hugging him and kissing his little cheeks!
What's been the hardest thing about motherhood?
I think one of the hardest things about motherhood is how much space my little boy takes up in my head. I feel like I think about him 24/7. Even if I'm thinking about something else, he's on my mind at the same time. I constantly have to remind myself not to worry about him, but to pray instead. I also have to be much more intentional about my marriage now. I no longer have all the time I used to for connecting with my sweet hubby. It can be so hard to care about anything or anyone else as much as I desire to because I am so focused on my baby.
Lastly, what surprised you the most?
The "mom club" that I immediately entered when I got pregnant was pretty surprising to me. People I had never met started coming up and speaking to me both when I was pregnant and now that I have an almost 7 month old. Sometimes it's amazing to have others that understand what I'm going through and sometimes the boldness of their opinions shock me a little bit. Mom judging is real but so is the encouragement and bond of mama friendship. I'd never trade this awesome mom life for anything.